Who knew?

I am a mom to an almost 2 year old little boy who is the life of the party no matter where we go. He has non-stop energy and is a climbing machine. Don't get me wrong, I absolutely love him to death but I never expected this amount of crazy. 

 This is my son as a newborn. He was born January 25, 2020 and we found out we were pregnant with him in April of 2019. We were so excited to be having a baby and honestly couldn't wait for him to come. Then tragedy struck. At 7 weeks into my pregnancy, I began bleeding. I wasn't sure why but over the course of 2 days it became so bad and I ended up passing out on the toilet. When I woke up, I didn't know what had happened or if I had a miscarriage. My husband and I went to the urgent clinic because it was the only place available other then the hospital to ask them for help in finding out what was wrong. 

When we got there I was a wreck and when the receptionist asked what we needed, all I could tell her was I'm pregnant but I'm bleeding and am not sure if I am having a miscarriage or not. She grabbed a nurse from the back who took us into a room and talked to us. She asked me a bunch of questions and with every answer she just nodded her head. When she was finished with her questions, she just looked at us and says, "It sounds like you are having a miscarriage. There is nothing we can do for you, you need to schedule a D&C with the hospital to make sure everything is removed." 

Our hearts broke. We went home and cried for days. All of our hopes of becoming parents was crushed and all we knew was that we had a miscarriage. We went on with our life and hoped that maybe one day we would be able to have another child. Days turned into weeks without any sign of a new cycle and then when those weeks turned into months, we began to be concerned. We were never told what steps to take after the miscarriage and began to be concerned there was something wrong with my body. I called my doctor and scheduled a checkup.

In my appointment, I told the doctor what had happened and what we were told so she had a better understanding of why I was there. She became concerned and told me it could possibly mean that we got pregnant right after the miscarriage so that was what we were going to check for first. I did a pregnancy test and it came back positive! She came in and told me the news and I was in shock! She said congratulations and this was most likely a new baby so we would need to do a sonogram to find out how far along I was. I went in to have the ultrasound and I was telling the nurse all that had happened when she looks at me with a shocked look on her face and says, "Um, this isn't a new baby. Because that is a spine" We switched from the sonogram to an ultrasound and my mouth dropped. The nurse was telling me how there is no way this is a new baby and how this baby has been here the entire time!

I was in shock, I couldn't speak or think. All I knew was that I had never miscarried and this baby had been there the entire time. When I returned to the room to talk with the doctor, I broke down into tears and the doctor was so mad about the terrible care that we had been given. She just kept saying I can't believe they would do this to you. I was 17 weeks along and found out I was having a little boy in January. I cried the rest of the day and my husband was at work in the mountains so I couldn't tell him until he got home from work that night.

Being given the news that we were still going to be having a baby but now it is almost September and the baby is coming in January is a scary, exciting time. I still to this day do not know what caused the bleeding but I do know that from now on, I will never make that mistake again.